For a long time I was firmly convinced that I only belonged behind the camera, but never in front of it. Then I discovered the smile trigger on my camera and how easily I could use it to take photos of myself: Just set the camera up so it could see me, and smile. And my self-image changed.
Published on 30.08.2022
All the pictures I took until 2011 were taken with a Sony DSC-F828. I really loved this camera. Several times I even repurchased used copies of this camera when mine stopped working. But finally the moment came when the aging device was no longer up to the growing demands of the modern media world and had to be exchanged for a successor.
This successor was the Sony A33, my first digital SLR camera. And it came with the function of automatically triggering the shutter when a smile was detected. This was a wonderful function, because it meant that I as a photographer could finally take photos without anyone having to press the button.
You have to smile for the camera to trigger with this function. So you smile automatically on all photos. And smiling is beautiful! Just by seeing yourself smile all the time in this way, smiling at yourself in every photo, you get a completely different image of yourself.
After all, they say it is good for your mood to smile at yourself in the mirror in the morning. Go ahead and try it out! :)
02.10.2011
Center of my Live
The preference for certain types of sportswear and a physical feeling associated with it for me, which partly also includes sexual arousal, has actually always been part of my life, you could even say a central part. Over the years, however, this focus has changed. :)
Published on 01.09.2022
As a child, it was especially snow suits made of smooth, shiny fabric inside and outside. Especially when putting it on, when the material was still cool, it felt nice. That is why I usually did not want to take the ski suit off after a walk in the snow, which was so scary to my parents that they took it away.
At this point, an advice to all parents out there who are in a similar situation as my parents were back then: allow it, do not forbid your children to wear or keep on something they obviously like, even if the sexual dimension of it all might be creepy for you. A ban can damage your child in development more seriously than you think, at least far more than if you just allow it.
This ban from my parents haunted me for a long time into adulthood. Do not worry, I am not mad at them for that, it was a very different time back then too!
In my teenage years, when I discovered the benefits of cycling clothes, I bought a bike - for one reason only: to be able to wear cycling shorts. How else could I have explained that to my parents?
Walking in the snow with a ski suit, riding a bike with a cycling suit - for people other than us who have that preference, it is quite normal.
But those who have such a special preference - and then were also shaped by a prohibition in childhood - have a shyness to move outside with the actually beloved clothing or even to show it to other people.
When I started with bbkus webservices and created websites about my preferences, it was mainly others who wore the clothes for me. But not myself, it just did not feel right, partly even scared me. Since that time, my parents also know about the special importance of sportswear for me. :)
Then, at the beginning of my thirties, I finally plucked up the courage and told myself that it just had to be explainable. Wearing a ski suit in winter while shopping, for example, would be very explainable, even if there was only snow on the mountains.
In the end, however, it was the smile trigger that changed my image of myself and helped me to overcome my shyness and fully accept myself, and also to wear cycling clothes on a bike ride or a ski suit in the snow outside and also in front of other people.
02.10.2011
That Something called Fetish
If a certain thing, in this case clothes, is connected with a special body feeling and this can also include sexual arousal, one speaks of a fetish. However, this does not mean that one is permanently in a state of arousal in the corresponding clothing.
Published on 07.09.2022
There are several things I like about cycling clothes, first of all the saddle pad, which feels a bit like a diaper and moves back and forth a bit with each step.
That is exactly why I find it very appealing to wear multiple layers of cycling shorts like I did that day, a pair of short bib cycling shorts underneath, a time trial suit and a long cycling pants in between and another time trial suit over that, plus bandana, gloves, arm warmers and leg warmers, all together from Gerolsteiner.
Furthermore, the bips of cycling shorts feel a bit like a hug on the shoulders, while the one-piece time trial suit hugs the entire body without constricting it.
Sometimes the seat pad slips in the ass crack, not with every cycling suit, but with some, that can also feel nice. :)
And cycling shorts also have a purely visual advantage, usually for others who want to see it. Because they show more than they hide, if they fit nice and tight. :)
And if then all layers are gone except for the last one, it can go really fast with me...
